And I continue to write the love story...
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
I was amused yet impressed with what I feel right now.I was totally a different person.The person that I know was no longer exist in me.I was a brand new person with a brand new perspective of life.I was no longer a pessimistic but an optimistic.I no longer look down on myself because I know that I was equal with the rest of my friends.I was not a freak anymore.I was much more discipline and hardworking.I used to take things for granted but it's over for now.I am a believer.I believe that I can achieve my dream.Sad to say that I used to have a bestfriends but not anymore.It was hard for me to trust anyone in this world.For all I know,they will backstab me oneday or either they talk bad behind me.To prevent that from happening,I make a decision not to have any bestfriends instead I want to befriend with anyone.I treasure my family and I love them so much.They are the love of my life and without their sacrifices and all their hardwork,I wouldnt be studying right now.I have to say that I am much more mature right now but I do have some kidness in me.I do not share my problems because I know that other people hav their own problems too plus I don't think I have a friends who would want to lend their shoulders for me.All this while,I have been standing on my own feet for the most of the time.Raudhah whom I used to call my "sisters" was never there for me.She was only there with me when she really2 needed me.I was always a "shoulder lender" and I sincerely love to help people,but somehow people tends to take advantage of me.I mean,I couldnt be there for them like 24 hours and I seriously cannot answer their problems and solve it for them.Friends have been calling me and asking me about the solutuion.I was irritated at times but I pushed myself because I know that they needed it.I am never to complain about me not having any friends who really2 go through thick and thins together but I just couldnt understand why.hmmmm.I guess I have to be on my own and that is the best solution.Sometimes,I feel so alone.Bloggy,you are what I needed in this kind of situation when I really feel lonely.Alright,enough of being so emo because I am not.Well urm,I have to end it here.
7:51 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.