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Saturday, September 22, 2007
You make me so confused boy. SInce the day you said that phrase, I went speechless inside.I got nothing else to comment about it because it was just so wrong of you to say that.I will forgive you but never will I forget about what you had said about my religious.I have to sat that my love for you is decreasing each day.I did not really miss you and I don't really feel it when I say " I love you" to you.I just can't accept the fact that you are chinese!!!I want a guy who can really guide me in my life and also guide me in my religious.I don't think you can do i because you don't believe in GOD and how could you!!I want to leave you but at the same time I don' want to.I don't want to hurt you boy.I just HATE break ups.Will we ever break up???? I DONT KNOW.
6:09 AM
Yours truly.
Friday, September 21, 2007
I guess I have made a wrong decision.I should have think twice before I made the decision to be with you.Honestly,I love you not because of your character.It is because of your charming looks that I had adoer since last year.Your looks made me fall in love with you.It has always got to do with your LOOKS but not your character.I thought you were my everything but soon I came to realise that you were nothing.I never thought you would say that infront of me.I have to accpet the fact that you are a straight forward person but hey,I have feelings too okayy.Sometimes,you just have to mind what you say boy.The truth hurts okayy and how long mus I bear with it??You LIKE joanna???I really dont mind seeing you two together as a couple you know because I dont think you are my mr right guy.THIS IS THE TRUTH AND I GUESS IT WILL HURT YOU DEEPLY WHEN YOU GET TO READ THIS.I AM BEING HONEST HERE BOY.The moment you said that,my love for you went missing and should I search it back or just let it be.Im CONFUSED.
7:34 AM
Yours truly. Today was our 2 month already.I went out with him today to cathay and watched movie, No Reservations.It was quite a romantic movie after all and the movie blends with our situation of celebrating our 2 monthsary.I must say that I had a lot of fun with boyfriend today but there's this one moment when I got shocked and speechless.The story goes like this.. "We were walking to Takashimaya when we suddenly brought up a topic to talk about and it was about religious thing.He told me that if he were given a chance,he would want to create his own religion.He told me that all the muslim's religious rule thingy is CRAP and it is all NOT LOGIC.He told me that he IS A LOGIC person and would like to create HIS OWN RELIGION.Oh how proud can he be sometimes.I was absolutely SHOCKED and SPEECHLESS and I went thinking, is he the right guy for me to fall in love with?? and the answer is obvious NO! I mean how can he say that!!!I respect his religion and I did not even critic his religion but he did critic MINE!!" ONE THING I HAVE TO SAY TO YOU: YOU ARE SUCH AN INSAME HUMAN.YOU WILL REGRET IN THE FUTURE FOR SAYING ALL THAT JUST NOW.MARK MY WORDS BOY.YOU WILL!!! thats it.im DONE and SEALED.
6:56 AM
Yours truly.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
where are you? are you there for me when I am in need? physically maybe yes but emotionally not. yes,i can see that you are making an effort. sometimes,truth does hurt a lot. maybe you just don't care. you always asked me to be happy. look,I have my own off days and I can't pretend always. I can't pretend to be happy infront of you always. try to understand a girls feelings can you??? stop making me jealous because fucking hate it. stop talking about other girls will you?? The time when u said Joanne is a SPECIAL GIRL, my heart totally sank. I am hurt.it's like there was a knife piercing through my heart. It is not easy for me you know, to know that there are many chinese girls who like you and they are staring at me as if they are going to eat me. I know they hate me for life because im your girlfriend. and sometimes I wonder, why did you choose me out of so many PRETTY CHINESE GIRLS? I feel so bad and you dont know it because I never show it. HAIZZZZ.
6:26 AM
Yours truly. I AM A FUCKING BURDEN TO MY BOYFRIEND! KILL ME SOMEONE. KILL!!!! OR I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF!! OK FINE!!! IT HURTS ME DEEPLY. but nvm. FUCKING SHIT. where is my spirit?
6:00 AM
Yours truly.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
I felt so weak and dumb yesterday.I was mugging with my boyfriend at the National Library and we were revising on our history.I was flipping through my textbook when I realised that I know nothing about history.It was hard for me to accept the fact that I am so stupid at history and I am jealous and pressurize when I looked at boyfriend and he was doing absolutely fine with his history.He memorised every topic already and I'm not.I put a side my history and suddenly I became so worried.I will be taking my o level this year and I don't think I can do pretty well because I am very weak on my combine humans,combine science and maths.I did some counting and I got to know that I was left with less than a month to really buck up on my studies.Is there any much time left for me to revise all those subjects??Study two subjects in one day and 2 hour for one subject??It's not only that that I am worrying about.I still have my art coursework to think of and my art take up a lot of my time.I think I am only left with 8 days to complete the whole coursework.I have not been staying back after school to do my art BECAUSE I was studying for my core subjects.I barely cannot forget my coresubjects and then concentrate on my art.I have to balance my time wisely.I can do that but it is just so hard.I have no strentgh to put in extra effort and when I really did,I tend to be very restless and exhausted that I will slack.Boyfriend and me did anothre second round of mugging under my block.I was not revising after all.Boyfriend really put his mind on the history textbook but me??I was day dreaming feeling so stress and worried.I am worried that I will fail my o level and that I cannot enter Polytechnic and if i really dont,all my dreams just burst into the thin air.All I want for now is to manage my time,study smart and at the same time finish my fucking art.I felt like giving up but to think it again..I want A1 for my art in order for me to go Poly because I believe that I can do much more better for my art than combine humans.Besides that,I am thinking of going La Salle school of arts or if I get to enter Poly,I want to take design course and I must really get distinction for my art.It is not difficult to get distinction but it's just that I have not much time left.I regret for not paying attention in class during my sec 2 year.I should have started to study since last year because my basics is so weak.Haizz.It's too late to regret now because O level is just 2 month away.I must not give up.I really can't give up because winners don't quit!!!From now on,no more slacking around.Study will be my first priority. Ok.Im SHUT and DONE.
5:25 AM
Yours truly. |
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