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Monday, May 26, 2008

A muslimah without her Imam is weak.

A muslimah needs a leader in order to guide her in life.

SHE has so many desires to deal with, unlike the " kaum Adam ".

A muslimah needs a leader in order for her to deal with emotions.

Just a small sparks can burn out HER entire day.

A muslimah is very weak. SHE needs a guidance from her perfect MAN.

I am weak, both physically and emotionally. It's a natural thing. I can't kick it away but I always have a choice to be strong and fight it. I have no problem when dealing with physical, but when it comes to emotions, I ended up failing. I tend to give in to my emotions and get cranky. Life is all about going through a test that will eventually teach us a lesson. Life's test isn't the same as school test. It's a totally different thing. I am a young women, growing up to be a women soon. The hurdles of my life is getting higher and higher. The way I cross the hurdles is really up to me. Whether I want to topple the hurdles down or leap over it without having it topple.

6:00 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Alright. Since I will be having Mother Tongue O level tomorrow, I will update my post in malay language. Somesort like a malay composition. hahaha. So here it goes.

[ Perasaan yang tidak dapat ku duga ]

Aku sedar bahawa aku hanya insan biasa yang tidak lepas dari dosa. Dosaku ini seluas padang pasir. Aku benci apabila perasaanku sedang bermain-main dengan diri aku. Aku rasa seperti seorang manusia yang hilang akal. Fikiranku berkecamuk. Hatiku ini bagaikan dihiris dengan pisau. Entah mengapa aku asyik rasa hendak menangis tanpa sebarang sebab. Aku hairan. Mungkin, jika aku ada sebab untuk menangis, sebab-sebab yang akan aku beri tidak munasabah. Aku sedih bercampur marah.

Fikiranku asyik melayang jauh, jauh entah kemana. Senyumanku, tawaku dan keceriaanku hilang. Aku senang merajuk dan cemburu. Mungkin inilah tanda-tanda seorang perempuan yang sedang datang haid. Aku benci dengan perasaan ini. Aku tidak dapat kawal perasaanku kerana ia telah mengawal diriku.

Airmataku bergenangan sejak petang tadi tetapi aku kuatkan semangatku dan kesat air mata yang sedang berlinangan. Tiada siapa pun yang tahu apa aku sedang mengalami sekarang. Sungguh perit untukku menelan segala perasaan yang sedang mengelilingi aku. Ingin sahaja aku teriak dengan sekuat-kuat hati aku. Mungkin itu dapat melegakan hati aku ini.

Aku sedang bersabar. Kesabaranku telah menjangkau had yang paling terakhir sekali. Inilah hidup. Penuh dengan rintangan. Aku harus tegas untuk melawan segala rintangan yang boleh manjatuhkan semangatku untuk hidup. Hidup ini ibarat ombak, ada pasang dan surutnya.

Haiz. Alangkah indahnya jika aku dapat menentang segala perasaan ini. Aku inginkan pelukan seseorang insan untuk melembutkan hati yang panas ini, sepasang telinga yang sudi untuk mendengar segala aduanku ini. Akan bisa lebih baik jika aku dapat meluangkan masa aku dengan orang yang aku cinta, hanya aku dan si dia. Tetapi aku tidak ingin mengharapkan itu semua. Aku ingin berdikari. Dengan doa dan solat aku harap ia dapat kembalikan keceriaanku semula. Insya'allah.

Dengan itu, aku akhiri " post " aku dengan memberi salam. Assalammualaikum.

Oh well. That is how I describe my feelings in malay. I know that it's pathetic but at least I tried. Hahahahahahaha. I could have describe it better if I were to use english language, but since tomorrow is Mother Tongue O level, I think I should try to write it in malay in order for me to get the feeling of writing composotion tomorrow. To all Mother Tongue O level candidates, I would like to wish you guys good luck! hahahahaha. mcm orang bace nie blog gitu...lol. Haizz, I must be strong.

THE END.

6:23 AM
Yours truly.

Monday, May 19, 2008

What's love???

It's about US and it's about trust.

Half of the year has gone and I am glad that our love still stay strong. I am always happy that you are still here with me, in my life. Stay put and don't run away. Seriously, I never would have thought that we will be together like this. It's miracle, for me. Back then, when we were still in secondary school, I have always adore you from far. I observed every movements of yours and I am always excited to go school because I knew there's YOU.

My heart ached when I knew that there are other school girls who liked you. You are just the perfect man in my eyes and I want to have you in my arms. As soon as I got to know that you were attached, I was disheartened. I felt as though I had lost everything that I want in my life, and that's you. No one in the school knows that I like you. It's just between my heart and myself. I picked myself up and moved on. It's hard. Soon, I started to forget about liking you and just go with the flow. Moreover, you're my classmate and my chairman. Having you in the same class as me was already good enough. Your presence in class is always the best, knowing that we will surely talked to each other.

I tried to make friends with other guys. Talked to them, joke with them but still.. I couldnt get rid of you. I always love recess because I knew that I can looked at you, even for a distance. It doesn't matter be it near or far, as long as I got to see you. I would eat facing my front at you. Haha. You will NEVER noticed it because you were busily eating. Moreover, you can never spot me. I observed you alot. And I mean ALOT.

Years had passed and as a classmate, we got a lil bit closer. That's where I really got hooked to you. Still, no one ever knew. I like it when we joke. Your laughter is the best medicine for me when I'm feeling down. Your cheeky-ness just made me fall for you even more. It's pain for me to look at you and knew that you can never be mine. I just wish that I could whisper the word " I love you " in your ears and just vanished, hoping that I would never see you again.

Fast forward..

Finally, you're back being single. I was rather happy because I knew that you don't deserve a girl like her. This time, you and I became very closed. We went out together. The feeling was exquisite. We started to text each other and even talked on the phone. In a blink of an eye, we became couple. I swear to god that I was the most happiest girl on earth. 29th of November 2007. The date of our life. It's when I finally got you in my arms and you got me in your arms. I couldn't really explained how I felt on that particular day. Nothing else matter in this world except for YOU. In addition, I really thought that I was dreaming but when I tried to pinch myself hard on my arms, I felt the pain and that really shows that I wasnt dreaming. YES!!! You're mine!!

And now, It has been nearly six months since we've been together and I really hope that the number will grow and grow till it can't grow anymore! With you dear, I learned alot of things. I learned to appreciate with what I have in this world. I learned to be very wise. You taught me alot in my life. Some of the lesson I had learnt from you can't just be describe. I learned to be a better person in my life. Being with you just taught me to be a stronger person. You take care of me as if I am your wife. You hold your responsibilty as a boyfriend and you never failed to embrace me with your romantic and unique love of yours. Your sensational touched make me fall in love with you even deeper. Your passionate kiss make me feel that Im yours and your hug is the bestest hug I have ever had. Not even a HUGE comfortable teddy bear could ever win your hug dear. You treated me very well. Even with all my cranky attitude, you still stay put to me and tried your very best to make me smile again. For once, I feel so blessed in this humble life of mine to be able to meet you. I am thankful. YOU are the bestest present I have ever received in my whole entire life. I have never love someone soo much like this before until I have you. We may have an arguments but what's relationship without it? Through thick and thin, you are there for me. The reason I live right now is all because of YOU. You pick me up when I fall. You shed my tears away when I cry. You shower me with your care when Im feeling down. You cheer me up and wash away my frown.

SHAHRIN.

The beautiful name of my wonderful boyfriend.

I really want to thank you for everythinf that you've done for me.

YOU are appreciated by me, I swear. You are the most

caring,romantic,loving,patience and the most wonderful boyfriend

I've ever had. The last thing I would like to say is that..

" I LOVE YOU SO MUCH "

with love, Syahirah.

2:30 AM
Yours truly.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

DOOM!!

I've been cracking my one and only brain for the past few days. Too many numbers and chemical reactions. It drove me crazy. Last friday wasn't my best day. I was mood-less. haha.
I lost my sense of humour. I did not laugh at my friend's joke. hahaha.I find it lame rather than funny. I see no point laughing. hahahaha. See now I'm laughing. I ended school at 4pm prolly because I had maths tuition which commenced at 2. Two hours of trigonometry, indices and standard form. My head was aching, I swear. Straight after tuition, I went over to meet boyfriend at ps, and then went to kfc for our lunch. I didn't eat.

Mid-year is 3 weeks away. I don't want to fail. I want to do better than my friends. I have to put a side my entertainments. All study, no play. BUT I have to say that I really do need a break sometimes. I can't be studying for the rest of my life. That is not how life's suppose to be. You need to have fun too. So yeah, I want an outing to sentosa badly. Like real BAD!! I want to feel the soft sands and hear the sound of small waves. I want to feel the breeze touching both side of my cheeks. I want the wind to play around with my hair and at the same time adore the beautiful blue sky. walau eh...irah is being so dramatic here!! Like " My problem lahh! ". hahaha.

Life has been treating me fair lately. Errm wait, abit unfair. hahaha. I miss watching MOVIES. I miss my G.I.L.A. I miss party. I miss fun and laughters. Am I too "kaki jalan"? I wonder. Maybe I am. I can't sit at home. I hate to rot! I prefer to go out eventhough I might be money-less. haha. English aper ehk aku pkai?? I'm just not the " sit-at-home-and-rot " type of girl. Once a in a while maybe can.

Sentosa. I think you need to wait a little more longer. Currently, I have no one to tag along with me and visit you. Gi sorang2 pon ok ehk? mcm org giler. Skali skaler, aper salahnyer. hahaha. The best is, to go with my sister. We can talk ALOT I tell you. We might be bitching around too.
hahahahahaha. Gossiping is LOVE. who doesnt? khe khe khe. Sometimes, you just have to be BAD in order to enjoy life. Hahahahahahaha. K lah. naik merepek. K bye.

6:36 AM
Yours truly.

Syaa Hii Rawr And I continue to write the love story...
	Monday, May 26, 2008 A muslimah without her Imam is weak. A muslimah needs a leader in order to guide her in life. SHE has so many desires to deal with, unlike the " kaum Adam ". A muslimah needs a leader in order for her to deal with emotions. Just a small sparks can burn out HER entire day. A muslimah is very weak. SHE needs a guidance from her perfect MAN. I am weak, both physically and emotionally. It's a natural thing. I can't kick it away but I always have a choice to be strong and fight it. I have no problem when dealing with physical, but when it comes to emotions, I ended up failing. I tend to give in to my emotions and get cranky. Life is all about going through a test that will eventually teach us a lesson. Life's test isn't the same as school test. It's a totally different thing. I am a young women, growing up to be a women soon. The hurdles of my life is getting higher and higher. The way I cross the hurdles is really up to me. Whether I want to topple the hurdles down or leap over it without having it topple. 6:00 AM Yours truly. Sunday, May 25, 2008 Alright. Since I will be having Mother Tongue O level tomorrow, I will update my post in malay language. Somesort like a malay composition. hahaha. So here it goes. [ Perasaan yang tidak dapat ku duga ] Aku sedar bahawa aku hanya insan biasa yang tidak lepas dari dosa. Dosaku ini seluas padang pasir. Aku benci apabila perasaanku sedang bermain-main dengan diri aku. Aku rasa seperti seorang manusia yang hilang akal. Fikiranku berkecamuk. Hatiku ini bagaikan dihiris dengan pisau. Entah mengapa aku asyik rasa hendak menangis tanpa sebarang sebab. Aku hairan. Mungkin, jika aku ada sebab untuk menangis, sebab-sebab yang akan aku beri tidak munasabah. Aku sedih bercampur marah. Fikiranku asyik melayang jauh, jauh entah kemana. Senyumanku, tawaku dan keceriaanku hilang. Aku senang merajuk dan cemburu. Mungkin inilah tanda-tanda seorang perempuan yang sedang datang haid. Aku benci dengan perasaan ini. Aku tidak dapat kawal perasaanku kerana ia telah mengawal diriku. Airmataku bergenangan sejak petang tadi tetapi aku kuatkan semangatku dan kesat air mata yang sedang berlinangan. Tiada siapa pun yang tahu apa aku sedang mengalami sekarang. Sungguh perit untukku menelan segala perasaan yang sedang mengelilingi aku. Ingin sahaja aku teriak dengan sekuat-kuat hati aku. Mungkin itu dapat melegakan hati aku ini. Aku sedang bersabar. Kesabaranku telah menjangkau had yang paling terakhir sekali. Inilah hidup. Penuh dengan rintangan. Aku harus tegas untuk melawan segala rintangan yang boleh manjatuhkan semangatku untuk hidup. Hidup ini ibarat ombak, ada pasang dan surutnya. Haiz. Alangkah indahnya jika aku dapat menentang segala perasaan ini. Aku inginkan pelukan seseorang insan untuk melembutkan hati yang panas ini, sepasang telinga yang sudi untuk mendengar segala aduanku ini. Akan bisa lebih baik jika aku dapat meluangkan masa aku dengan orang yang aku cinta, hanya aku dan si dia. Tetapi aku tidak ingin mengharapkan itu semua. Aku ingin berdikari. Dengan doa dan solat aku harap ia dapat kembalikan keceriaanku semula. Insya'allah. Dengan itu, aku akhiri " post " aku dengan memberi salam. Assalammualaikum. Oh well. That is how I describe my feelings in malay. I know that it's pathetic but at least I tried. Hahahahahahaha. I could have describe it better if I were to use english language, but since tomorrow is Mother Tongue O level, I think I should try to write it in malay in order for me to get the feeling of writing composotion tomorrow. To all Mother Tongue O level candidates, I would like to wish you guys good luck! hahahahaha. mcm orang bace nie blog gitu...lol. Haizz, I must be strong. THE END. 6:23 AM Yours truly. Monday, May 19, 2008 What's love??? It's about US and it's about trust. Half of the year has gone and I am glad that our love still stay strong. I am always happy that you are still here with me, in my life. Stay put and don't run away. Seriously, I never would have thought that we will be together like this. It's miracle, for me. Back then, when we were still in secondary school, I have always adore you from far. I observed every movements of yours and I am always excited to go school because I knew there's YOU. My heart ached when I knew that there are other school girls who liked you. You are just the perfect man in my eyes and I want to have you in my arms. As soon as I got to know that you were attached, I was disheartened. I felt as though I had lost everything that I want in my life, and that's you. No one in the school knows that I like you. It's just between my heart and myself. I picked myself up and moved on. It's hard. Soon, I started to forget about liking you and just go with the flow. Moreover, you're my classmate and my chairman. Having you in the same class as me was already good enough. Your presence in class is always the best, knowing that we will surely talked to each other. I tried to make friends with other guys. Talked to them, joke with them but still.. I couldnt get rid of you. I always love recess because I knew that I can looked at you, even for a distance. It doesn't matter be it near or far, as long as I got to see you. I would eat facing my front at you. Haha. You will NEVER noticed it because you were busily eating. Moreover, you can never spot me. I observed you alot. And I mean ALOT. Years had passed and as a classmate, we got a lil bit closer. That's where I really got hooked to you. Still, no one ever knew. I like it when we joke. Your laughter is the best medicine for me when I'm feeling down. Your cheeky-ness just made me fall for you even more. It's pain for me to look at you and knew that you can never be mine. I just wish that I could whisper the word " I love you " in your ears and just vanished, hoping that I would never see you again. Fast forward.. Finally, you're back being single. I was rather happy because I knew that you don't deserve a girl like her. This time, you and I became very closed. We went out together. The feeling was exquisite. We started to text each other and even talked on the phone. In a blink of an eye, we became couple. I swear to god that I was the most happiest girl on earth. 29th of November 2007. The date of our life. It's when I finally got you in my arms and you got me in your arms. I couldn't really explained how I felt on that particular day. Nothing else matter in this world except for YOU. In addition, I really thought that I was dreaming but when I tried to pinch myself hard on my arms, I felt the pain and that really shows that I wasnt dreaming. YES!!! You're mine!! And now, It has been nearly six months since we've been together and I really hope that the number will grow and grow till it can't grow anymore! With you dear, I learned alot of things. I learned to appreciate with what I have in this world. I learned to be very wise. You taught me alot in my life. Some of the lesson I had learnt from you can't just be describe. I learned to be a better person in my life. Being with you just taught me to be a stronger person. You take care of me as if I am your wife. You hold your responsibilty as a boyfriend and you never failed to embrace me with your romantic and unique love of yours. Your sensational touched make me fall in love with you even deeper. Your passionate kiss make me feel that Im yours and your hug is the bestest hug I have ever had. Not even a HUGE comfortable teddy bear could ever win your hug dear. You treated me very well. Even with all my cranky attitude, you still stay put to me and tried your very best to make me smile again. For once, I feel so blessed in this humble life of mine to be able to meet you. I am thankful. YOU are the bestest present I have ever received in my whole entire life. I have never love someone soo much like this before until I have you. We may have an arguments but what's relationship without it? Through thick and thin, you are there for me. The reason I live right now is all because of YOU. You pick me up when I fall. You shed my tears away when I cry. You shower me with your care when Im feeling down. You cheer me up and wash away my frown. SHAHRIN. The beautiful name of my wonderful boyfriend. I really want to thank you for everythinf that you've done for me. YOU are appreciated by me, I swear. You are the most caring,romantic,loving,patience and the most wonderful boyfriend I've ever had. The last thing I would like to say is that.. " I LOVE YOU SO MUCH " with love, Syahirah. 2:30 AM Yours truly. Saturday, May 17, 2008 DOOM!! I've been cracking my one and only brain for the past few days. Too many numbers and chemical reactions. It drove me crazy. Last friday wasn't my best day. I was mood-less. haha. I lost my sense of humour. I did not laugh at my friend's joke. hahaha.I find it lame rather than funny. I see no point laughing. hahahaha. See now I'm laughing. I ended school at 4pm prolly because I had maths tuition which commenced at 2. Two hours of trigonometry, indices and standard form. My head was aching, I swear. Straight after tuition, I went over to meet boyfriend at ps, and then went to kfc for our lunch. I didn't eat. Mid-year is 3 weeks away. I don't want to fail. I want to do better than my friends. I have to put a side my entertainments. All study, no play. BUT I have to say that I really do need a break sometimes. I can't be studying for the rest of my life. That is not how life's suppose to be. You need to have fun too. So yeah, I want an outing to sentosa badly. Like real BAD!! I want to feel the soft sands and hear the sound of small waves. I want to feel the breeze touching both side of my cheeks. I want the wind to play around with my hair and at the same time adore the beautiful blue sky. walau eh...irah is being so dramatic here!! Like " My problem lahh! ". hahaha. Life has been treating me fair lately. Errm wait, abit unfair. hahaha. I miss watching MOVIES. I miss my G.I.L.A. I miss party. I miss fun and laughters. Am I too "kaki jalan"? I wonder. Maybe I am. I can't sit at home. I hate to rot! I prefer to go out eventhough I might be money-less. haha. English aper ehk aku pkai?? I'm just not the " sit-at-home-and-rot " type of girl. Once a in a while maybe can. Sentosa. I think you need to wait a little more longer. Currently, I have no one to tag along with me and visit you. Gi sorang2 pon ok ehk? mcm org giler. Skali skaler, aper salahnyer. hahaha. The best is, to go with my sister. We can talk ALOT I tell you. 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