Somehow, I just wants us to be like before. So happy and no worries.


Yes, I'm talking about us. We were very happy back then. Always laughing. I somehow feel the differences between the two of us. Urrrgh. Maybe im just crapping. Maybe my relationship is just fine as usual but it's me who thinks differently. mepeknyer aku..k dah dah. i'll stop here then.

The Pursuit of Happy-ness.



A movie that inspires me inside-out. A very touching and great movie acted by a good looking and well-built actor, Will Smith. The movie is about a Father ( Will Smith ) who lived with his one and only 5 year old son, struggling to survive with their messy life. He was once married to a lady but they got a divorced, prolly because he has no permanent job. His ex-wife left him and his son while she migrated to New York to start her new life there.


Leaving with only him and his son, he started to look for a job but he faced with so many challenges. Not only challenges but also a time-management problem. He has no one to look out for help. He solved his own problems. They have no permanent house to live on. Sometimes, when they really have no where to sleep, toilet is their only place to take cover.


What inspire me most about the movie is how The Father ( Will Smith ) worked his ass off for both his son and himself. He never gives up and always believed that nothing is impossible. He went through alot of hell in his life but he keep on going. He is a very hardworking and determined father who wants to keep both his and his son dream alive. He is very patience. He never quit but always keep on trying. He never lose his faith.


The movie had taught me that life isn't all about sadness. It is how you live your life each day. There is no short cuts in reality. When you want to be happy, you need to be VERY HARDWORKING and also sacrifise because the results of your sacrifisation and hardworking will bring you tears of joys. It will bring you to the PURSUIT of the HAPPINESS in your life. In order to gain or achieve something, you must learn how to lose something too. You must know how to give and take. Hardwork does pays off. Well I don't know how to pen down how I felt after watching the movie. It was undescriable. If you want to know, WATCH IT!!!

SPENDTHRIFT.


That is me. I can't seem to flush it away. I find it hard to kick the habit away because I was pampered by my parents since I was young. I did not blame my parents for turning me into a daughter who is very spendthrift. I am now turning 17 and is given a matured brain for me to think which is right and which is wrong. haahaa. Eventually, I dont make use of it. I take things for granted and honestly, I hate myself.

Simple, I am just a confuse girl.
I am confuse with what is right and what is wrong. Oh well, I had a great talk with boyfriend over at BPP Long John Silver just now. hahaha. I know, a pathethic place but a very meaningful chat. We exchanged our thoughts and he eventually shared with me his opinion. Thank god, his sharings knock some sense in my head. Bf, I owe you big time!!!!!

No one can change me except for myself. I have to think of a solution, by hook or by crook. I want to kick away my bad habits!! Seriously, I gained alot from bf's sharing. Cool or what!! hahaha. Those advises given from boyfriend was very meaningful to me. I will make use of it. Thank you once again boyfriend.

IM FCUKING TIRED!!!!

Imma crash to bed now. holler!!!

Hey ho hey ho,

Life has been more to the dark side. I've been doing soul searching for the past few days. Not as in searching for soulmate but searching for who I am deep inside. After alot of brainstorming, I soon realised where I went wrong. The only way where I can get to know my mistakes is through self reflection. I am very sick and tired of searching for true friends. Now I know that there are NONE. hahaha... Maybe to other people true friends do exist but as for me, it never happens. I received back my CA1 results and I am quite happy with what I got. Dad gave me $15 for obtaining good grades. hahaha. ( maybe, this will be my first and my last obtaining A1's..hahahaha..ca1 paper was so easy!! )


FRIENDS.

I got pissed when I was writting the word friends. I don't know why but I am just so annoyed.
I seriously don't want to brag about friendship anymore. Let's just make friends with anyone that comes my way. simple.


LOVE LIFE.

Always lovely. It has been 4 month plus since we are together and the number will grow!! hehe.
We do fought sometimes but that's normal. haahaa. Sometimes, I get so stressed up. Why?? because I have been thinking what I can do in order to make my relationship better. hahaha. Like I said to bf, I love to brainstorm. Weird but true. But sometimes, I'll get tired of it and I simply SHUT DOWN. No brainstorming please. hahahaha.. I love boyfriend. simple saying but it's absolutely more than that. I can't arranged it in words. It's impossible. Boyfriend is the bestest thing in my whole entire life. If you ask me to choose between a diamond and bf, I choose BF. And if I were given the choice to choose between life and bf, I choose BF. Simply because HE IS my life. My life meant nothing without him. We are just VERY CLOSE. We laughed together. Cry together. Mad together. Angry at each other together. EVERYTHING together. hahaha. I love kissing him. It gives me a butterfly in my stomache. hahahaha. Kissing him just makes me feel so [ feel in the blank ]. hahahahahaha. Oh my, I just love him so much. Okayy?? Fullstop!!!