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Syaa
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Tuesday, September 11, 2007
I felt so weak and dumb yesterday.I was mugging with my boyfriend at the National Library and we were revising on our history.I was flipping through my textbook when I realised that I know nothing about history.It was hard for me to accept the fact that I am so stupid at history and I am jealous and pressurize when I looked at boyfriend and he was doing absolutely fine with his history.He memorised every topic already and I'm not.I put a side my history and suddenly I became so worried.I will be taking my o level this year and I don't think I can do pretty well because I am very weak on my combine humans,combine science and maths.I did some counting and I got to know that I was left with less than a month to really buck up on my studies.Is there any much time left for me to revise all those subjects??Study two subjects in one day and 2 hour for one subject??It's not only that that I am worrying about.I still have my art coursework to think of and my art take up a lot of my time.I think I am only left with 8 days to complete the whole coursework.I have not been staying back after school to do my art BECAUSE I was studying for my core subjects.I barely cannot forget my coresubjects and then concentrate on my art.I have to balance my time wisely.I can do that but it is just so hard.I have no strentgh to put in extra effort and when I really did,I tend to be very restless and exhausted that I will slack.Boyfriend and me did anothre second round of mugging under my block.I was not revising after all.Boyfriend really put his mind on the history textbook but me??I was day dreaming feeling so stress and worried.I am worried that I will fail my o level and that I cannot enter Polytechnic and if i really dont,all my dreams just burst into the thin air.All I want for now is to manage my time,study smart and at the same time finish my fucking art.I felt like giving up but to think it again..I want A1 for my art in order for me to go Poly because I believe that I can do much more better for my art than combine humans.Besides that,I am thinking of going La Salle school of arts or if I get to enter Poly,I want to take design course and I must really get distinction for my art.It is not difficult to get distinction but it's just that I have not much time left.I regret for not paying attention in class during my sec 2 year.I should have started to study since last year because my basics is so weak.Haizz.It's too late to regret now because O level is just 2 month away.I must not give up.I really can't give up because winners don't quit!!!From now on,no more slacking around.Study will be my first priority. Ok.Im SHUT and DONE.
5:25 AM
Yours truly. |
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