In life, you will never have the vision when your love one will go. Today, I learned how to treasure my family. No one in this world knows when they are dying. Maybe tomorrow? or even now!! Talking about death, I'm starting to feel the chill running down my spine. what!! lol. I mean, who doesnt?? I am soo afraid of dying okayy. Well, I just don't want to think about it too much. Period.




Well, maybe I just don't want to describe how my day goes today. The thing is, I don't want to talk about it either. lol. It's hard to be SYAHIRAH. hahahahaha. I want to enjoy life and live every of my life to the fullest. I want to be the primary school SYAHIRAH. She enjoyed every day of her life back then. Nothing or no one stopped her from doing what she love, for example, SPORTS. She's bubbly and cheerful. No worries at all. Besides that, she's very fit and very active. She doesn't care what people want to say about her as long as she's happy. She's a good leader and loves to help and volunteer. I envy her, like alot. I envy myself.



Now, I want to find my happiness back but how can happiness be found? and where? I think I need to learn to love my life now and all the things that I do today. I must not dwell on the past because it restrict me from exposing myself more to the public.