To my dearest Mother,


I am truly sorry for today. I did not hold my words and I felt guilty for it. I wanted to get out from that fucking room and just proceed to Woodland with you but I just can't and you know why. I am sorry mum, I am truly sorry. I know you tried your very best to cheer me up but I guess I was too [ fill in the blank ] to go out. I hope you understand. I was like a solitary figure.

I am sorry Ibu.



I locked myself in the prayer room for one whole day. I slept. I was too exhausted of [ fill in the blank ]. I talked to myself and I think and think and think until I fell asleep. Muhammad woke me up at 7 plus, I think. There's a call for me and it's from boyfriend. I was sooooo HAPPY that we will be going to West Coast Park tomorrow morning. I've been longing to go there with him and I am soo excited now!! Ooooohh I truly cannot wait. =)