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Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Alright, this blog is only meant for me and Allah. I somehow received a tight slap on my face today.Not really a tight slap on my cheeks, hahaha, I guess you know what I mean yeah. It is a wake up call for me.I deserved it. Serves me right. The clerk from my school called my house number and spoke to my dad. The clerk, who is a lady but I did not know her name, called my house number and talked to my dad regarding my attendance. She told my dad that I have not been attending classes for the whole of last week. It's the fact.I knew this would happened and I am really happy it did. I am really thankful it happened. Allah, thanks for making it happened because it really made me realised that whatever I have done lately was totally wrong.My doings was unacceptable. If you did not make this happen,I might be lost with my bad habits. I need to change my bad habits, really. I must attend every classes and go every science practical. Some class may not be important but at least, I learn something rather than nothing. I am very thankful to you god for giving me this opportunity to correct my mistakes. I really thank you for giving me alot of chances to prove other people that I can do it despite the fact that I dissapoint you countless of times and also do what you detest and forbid the most.Astaghfirullah, I am truly sorry my beloved Allah. I truly am. I need you to show me right path Allah. I need you to guide me Allah. Astaghfirullah. forgive me my dearest Allah. Allah, you are very forgiving and from this day onwards, I will give my best not to dissapoint you. If I accidentally did, forgive me for I am a human being who cannot run away mistakes. I am not perfect. I have learned alot from this humble life of mine. Life gives us a test that teaches us lesson unlike in school. School teach us lessons and then give us a test. Allah, I am sure you know the reasons why I skipped school.Please give me the strength to live my life. Please help me control my emotions and my nafsu. I want to be true to myself and also respect my parents. Allah, I need your help. I know I must not only blog it here. I need to perform my prayers and ask for aid. Prayers are the pillar of strength. " Ya allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan. Jauhi lah aku dari syaitan yang direjam. Aku memohon padamu ya allah. Ampunilah segala dosa-dosa ku ini. Dosa ku ini seluas padang pasir. Aku tak layak memasuki syurgamu tetapi aku pula tidak sanggup dengan nerakamu.Kuatkan lah imanku ya allah. " Blog, to be honest, I am too dissapointed to share my feelings to anyone anymore. I don't want to share anymore. Can I share it with you?? I am sick and tired of everything. I seriously don't want to share anymore. I just want to share my feelings with you. Don't debate with me if I share okayy??? No harm yeah. lol. Haaizz. Now I know who is angel and who is devil. I don't want to say much. Allah, everything I feel deep down from my heart, you are the only one who knows its. =) Till here then.
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