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Sunday, July 13, 2008

I am having the worst mentrual cramp ever. Extreme mentrual cramp. I have just eaten 2 pain relief panadols and I am feeling much better now, but trust me, the cramp might strike me again once the paracetamol wears off.

BOYFRIEND, thousands and millions of apology if I showed attitude today. I know you might think that I am always making mentrual cramp as an excuses but I really hope that you could believe me that I am not. The cramp is true, it exist. I can't be happy and cheerful when I am irritated by the pain. If only you could feel how I feel, it would be great so that you will know I am not making excuses. I am controlling it but it's never easy. I get jealous easily. I'm sure you know that I'm not the type of girl who gets jealous easily when I'm not having menses right? But this pms makes me feel jealous even when I saw you playing around with my friends. It's just so hard to be a girl okayy. Having so many kinds of feelings yet controlling it, it's hard. I don't think any other girls whould bother. But I know I can do it and I know I am not like any other girls. I am sure you feel it too yeah? I am simple and I want to stay that way. chey!! Promote diri sendiri keper!! Na'uh!! I am not, okayy. And OF COURSE, you are different from any other guys. I am so lucky to have you here with me. You arent like the "pondok" guys and because know which is right and which is wrong. Kudos to your parents. They succeed to train you to be this way, and I'm so proud of you. Don't ever let your parents down okayy. Bare with my cranky attitudes a little longer. Everything will settle down yeah. Just don't ignore me. I hate ignorance during my pms mood. I don't want to stay like this forever. haaaa!!!! Ok hush.

A new revolution for me with effect from tomorrow. haaaa!! I hope I can achieve it. =) Insya'allah.

I'm not like those girls with thick eye liner.

I'm not like those girls who is sophisticated & materialistic.

I'm not like those girls who smoke, eventhough I used to.

I've QUIT being a bad girl. QUIT menas QUIT for me.

I don't want to be a piece of SHIT to the public.

I want to make full use of my life, by gaining experiences.

I don't want to be hypocrites nor backstabber. I am never one.

I want to be useful, not useless. I want to be good, not bad.

I'm 17, not 10. I have brain and I can THINK.

I am not MINAH and never will I be that person.

I treasure my life. I treasure my family and my love ones.

I want to be independant, not dependant.

I want to be strong, not weak.

I want to serve, not te be served.

I want to speak the truth, not lies.

I want to help and listen to others.

I want to learn as much as I can.

I want to improve to be a better person.

I want to respect the feelings of others.

I want to give, not ask.

I want to be caring, not mean.

I want to keep my word and correct my own mistakes.

I want to tackle problems head on.

I want to be hardworking, not lazy.

I want to search for the truth and not jump to conclusions.

I want to learn from my past mistakes.

I want to understand the root of all problems.

I want to listen to criticism and accept it with open heart.

I want to respect and encourage others.

I want to SMILE in almost all situations.

I want to be encourage by my own failures.

I want to be flexible when plans change.

I want to respect others decision.

I want to forgive quickly.

I want to seek strength in forgiveness.

I want to response kindly to those who hurt me.

I want to encourage others to forgive.

I want to share what I have with the others.

I want to give without expecting anything in return.

I want to make good use of my time and talents.

I want to make others feel important.

I want to admit mistakes without any hesitation.

I want to Love people, use money. Not use people and love money.

I want to be self-control.

I want to go the extra-mile.

And last but not least, Treasure my FAMILY. =)

ACTIONS SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS.

It may take me a month or even a year to be that person

I describe above. After all, it's not perfection that I want.

It's TRUE SUCCESS that I want.

so till here then. =)

12:40 AM
Yours truly.

Syaa Hii Rawr And I continue to write the love story...
	Sunday, July 13, 2008 I am having the worst mentrual cramp ever. Extreme mentrual cramp. I have just eaten 2 pain relief panadols and I am feeling much better now, but trust me, the cramp might strike me again once the paracetamol wears off. BOYFRIEND, thousands and millions of apology if I showed attitude today. I know you might think that I am always making mentrual cramp as an excuses but I really hope that you could believe me that I am not. The cramp is true, it exist. I can't be happy and cheerful when I am irritated by the pain. If only you could feel how I feel, it would be great so that you will know I am not making excuses. I am controlling it but it's never easy. I get jealous easily. I'm sure you know that I'm not the type of girl who gets jealous easily when I'm not having menses right? But this pms makes me feel jealous even when I saw you playing around with my friends. It's just so hard to be a girl okayy. Having so many kinds of feelings yet controlling it, it's hard. I don't think any other girls whould bother. But I know I can do it and I know I am not like any other girls. I am sure you feel it too yeah? I am simple and I want to stay that way. chey!! Promote diri sendiri keper!! Na'uh!! I am not, okayy. And OF COURSE, you are different from any other guys. I am so lucky to have you here with me. You arent like the "pondok" guys and because know which is right and which is wrong. Kudos to your parents. They succeed to train you to be this way, and I'm so proud of you. Don't ever let your parents down okayy. Bare with my cranky attitudes a little longer. Everything will settle down yeah. Just don't ignore me. I hate ignorance during my pms mood. I don't want to stay like this forever. haaaa!!!! Ok hush. A new revolution for me with effect from tomorrow. haaaa!! I hope I can achieve it. =) Insya'allah. I'm not like those girls with thick eye liner. I'm not like those girls who is sophisticated & materialistic. I'm not like those girls who smoke, eventhough I used to. I've QUIT being a bad girl. QUIT menas QUIT for me. I don't want to be a piece of SHIT to the public. I want to make full use of my life, by gaining experiences. I don't want to be hypocrites nor backstabber. I am never one. I want to be useful, not useless. I want to be good, not bad. I'm 17, not 10. I have brain and I can THINK. I am not MINAH and never will I be that person. I treasure my life. I treasure my family and my love ones. I want to be independant, not dependant. I want to be strong, not weak. I want to serve, not te be served. I want to speak the truth, not lies. I want to help and listen to others. I want to learn as much as I can. I want to improve to be a better person. I want to respect the feelings of others. I want to give, not ask. I want to be caring, not mean. I want to keep my word and correct my own mistakes. I want to tackle problems head on. I want to be hardworking, not lazy. I want to search for the truth and not jump to conclusions. I want to learn from my past mistakes. I want to understand the root of all problems. I want to listen to criticism and accept it with open heart. I want to respect and encourage others. I want to SMILE in almost all situations. I want to be encourage by my own failures. I want to be flexible when plans change. I want to respect others decision. I want to forgive quickly. I want to seek strength in forgiveness. I want to response kindly to those who hurt me. I want to encourage others to forgive. I want to share what I have with the others. I want to give without expecting anything in return. I want to make good use of my time and talents. I want to make others feel important. I want to admit mistakes without any hesitation. I want to Love people, use money. Not use people and love money. I want to be self-control. I want to go the extra-mile. And last but not least, Treasure my FAMILY. =) ACTIONS SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS. It may take me a month or even a year to be that person I describe above. After all, it's not perfection that I want. It's TRUE SUCCESS that I want. so till here then. =) 12:40 AM Yours truly.	Yours Truly Your profile here. Comments Cbox/comment box here! Links Gf Izzi Gf Raudhah Gf Zeemah Abby Gf Leeyan Gf Sasha Gf Nadiah Zelah Mr Ng Gf Anisah Fatin kidd Andy ShaSha Hazirah Zahier Bella Firdastry Lala Parker Sissy Syuu Praan Abg Isk Afiq Heedayah Hyraah Shasha Rockstar Kak El Atiqah kasha Archives June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 Credits Biggest credit: the bikini boy Editor: JollyPills/:B