I noticed something in me. The life I'm living right now is totally different from the life I had lived for the past 2 years.


I hardly spend my times with my friends and surprisingly, I do not even miss them at all. I have a valid reasons for that. I only hang out with then only if I feel like doing so. Most of the time, I spend it with boyfriend, studying and slacking. Somehow, I just prefer it to be that way. Simple but fun. Abit boring sometimes. Amid those times I spent with boyfriend, I am also aware that I am no longer close with my babes or even depend on them. They dissapoint me countless of time. This is where I stop and give myself a hard slap on my face telling myself to move on and stop being so nice to them. I succeeded.


That is one of the difference I spot in my life now. Besides that, I am also aware that I have becoming more and more lazy. I was assault with lazyness very frequently. I hardly go school but hey, that does not mean that I hardly study at all or worse, show that I do not care about my O level. I know what I am doing. I am proud to say that I did so much better in my mid year compare to those who come to school regularly. Actually, it's not about how frequent you come to school. It's about how much effort you put in your studies. I may not be in school regularly but I did revise regularly. I am trying to keep up with it. Right now, I am trying my best to push myself hard and attend chemistry class on every Wednesday and also attending science practical lessons on alternate Wednesday and Thursday. I am working on it hard but nothing shown. LOL. So that truly shows that I am not trying my best. lol. Believe me, it is very hard for me to go school because I am extremely lazy to drag my ass off to school which is located far away from my house. That worsen the condition. lol. I may look relax on the outside but behind an innocuous-looking face on mine, my heart is throbbing and my mind is teeming with the word O'level. It's hard to live with it.


Alright then. I'm off to clean myself and then start my revision. Taking care.