I saw my favourite handphone flew and slammed to the wall, with my own naked and teary eyes. I was crying and oblivious by what I had just did. Apparently, I was the one who threw my handphone over to the wall. Afterwhich, I cried as though I had just lost someone who is very precious to me.


It all happened when I had a minor argument with dad. I asked his permission to use the computer but he did not allow me with his excuses that I have not been studying. He also brought up the school matters, which I despised the most. I know I have not been attending school but I have never neglect my studies.


Without any further a do, I went inside my room and slammed the door real hard. I, myself got scared out of my wits when I heard the loud bang. Hahahahaha. Ok serious. So, I crash myself at my bed and cried even louder. I was seethe with impotent fury.


Few mintues later, dad unlocked the door and entered. I was not surprised to see my mom standing besides my dad. Both of them asked me why I cried. I did not answer. Instead, I shouted at dad. I sounded like a monster because I shouted very loudly, as though my voice box was going to come out of my mouth.


The reason why I went out of control was because, I felt stress. I was stressed with alot of things. My rusty chains of thoughts was rudely distracted. I felt lonely. There are some other reasons as to why I became like a monster but I rather not post it here because the list might not end if I do so. hahaha. Only boyfriend knew why. Oh ya, amid the heated argument I had with dad, I made boyfriend as one of my victims too. lol. I was crying when boyfriend called me. He was not aware of my situation until he heard my voice. He asked me why I cried, and so I told him. I was so mad that I shouted at him " aarrgh diam ah!!! ", and then I slammed my phone to the wall. Hahahahahaha. Im sorry boyfriend. =)



But do not worry. I am NORMAL now. All thanks to my most beloved boyfriend. I met him today over at pondok right after mugging. I was still moodless and am not in a good state of mind. My eyes still looked lost and sorrowful. My entire being was lifeless and worn. We sat down and silence grew within us. But boyfriend broke the silence and asked me what had happened to me yesterday. So I answered, " I lost my mind ".


Boyfriend advised me very wisely. After hearing all those wise words from him, I started to feel a burden of guilt weighing down on me. Tears started to flow and wet my cheeks as I felt an indescribable guilt. Being sweet, boyfriend looked at me and wipe those tears that scalded my eyes.


Oh well, enough of sorrowness and misery. Boyfriend had already taught me about patience and sincere and I am going to head his advice. Without it, I could have been walking on the wrong path and make the wrong decision. Boyfriend, you saved me when my world started to feel cold. You reached out for me when I nearly slipped. Therefore, I really want to thank you ALOT. I don't know how to repay your kindness but I know that I will. =)


Thats all for today.